I just watched Supersize Me tonight and I swear to God, if I ever eat at McDonald's (or any fast food chain, for that matter) in my life EVER again, I will NOT be eating the Chicken Nuggets. I literally gagged when they explained exactly what they are - not chicken, to say the least.

It made me want to run out to Wal-Mart immediately after it was over and buy a cardio DVD, some weights and a jump rope. It made me want to head out to the track and walk two miles. I didn't though because it was dark so I did jumping jacks for about twenty minutes. It's a start.

Most of you may know that I started Weight Watchers through my work about a year ago. I lost about fifteen pounds by last summer but ended up putting it back on. I am not very good with commitment. But I need to get motivated to do something because I just am not happy with myself anymore.

I'm trying to switch from soda (I have, actually, in the past year, switched from Diet Coke to soda free of caffeine) to water. I am trying to eat better. I stopped ordering out for lunch everyday and I haven't had a patty melt in over a year, which was my vice. I've changed my habits, but not enough. I need to do something better.

The worst part is the exercise, or lack thereof. I never was one to be quite active through school. I didn't play sports or work out. I basically moved around enough to sustain my habits. I danced a lot (recreation, not professional). When I was in college, I was walking blocks everyday and eating more balanced dinners. Once I moved on my own and had to rely on myself to cook and moved into an office job, my activity level went way down and my meals were reduced to peanut butter sandwhiches, macaroni and cheese, or any other food that can be cooked quickly or is cheap.

I see a drastic difference in my body, my emotional state, and my attitude. I just need the motivation to get out there, to make a commitment, to start making a change - because I can't live life like this and I don't want to end up like the maker of Supersize Me.

Any suggestions from the Peanut Gallery?

*Cue the Usher song in the background*

I am avoiding going to the doctor for my ankle. While it feels much better and is not swollen or bruised at all (and I can walk on it okay), it still hurts when I bend my foot inwards or sit cross-legged (which I actually have to avoid doing because it hurts). It's very weak and I hesitate to go because I don't want to pay the copay if she's just going to tell me it's a sprain and takes awhile to get over but at the same time, I hope I didn't do some major damage.

I spent quite a bit of money on myself this weekend. I bought new graphic t-shirts from Old Navy (love them!), some Bath & Body Works body stuff, a shit load of shorts and shirts from NY & Company (totaling $150 dollars but I only paid $50), and groceries and essentials (shampoo, foundation) from CVS.

I was a week late picking up my prescription from CVS.

I was a TWO weeks late mailing my mom's Mother's Day package.

When I went to pick up my prescription from CVS, I also picked up some nail polish and a Life & Style $1.99 gossip magazine. I got home and realized she had not charged me for the nail polish. I didn't go back.

I shaved my legs for myself. I painted my nails three times, three different colors, in two days.

I made Steve forgo watching a movie with me until 10pm because the season finale of CSI was on and there was NO WAY I was going to miss it (for anybody's whose seen it, was it not great?!?!?!)

I slept until 11:30 am on Saturday and Sunday. I proceeded to wake up and not clean anything at all. I had been so busy these past four weekends that stepping over the shit on the floor just seemed so much more appealing than actually spending my weekend picking it up.

I considered calling out of work this morning. For a good twenty minutes, I laid in bed and considered it, thus resulting in me being about twenty minutes late for work.

I spent way more money than I need to. I still haven't paid my bills.

I never called to get my car in for it's scheduled recall service. I never called the DA's office to make sure they put me on call for the case I have to go in for. I never sent out the Verizon refund for my new cell phone. I never found a new OB/GYN and thus, I never scheduled my OB/GYN appointment. I got the check for my mileage reimbursement (from when I was in training) and I STILL haven't deposited it. (I'm getting around to all this, I promise.)

Now that we have crossed into a new plateau with my project at work (second mortgages), I am totally lost as to where and what I'm supposed to be doing.

I spent quite a bit of time playing Minesweeper just to calm my mind down and I still have yet to beat the Expert game.

I actually enjoyed Hitchiker's Guide to the Galaxy.

I scarfed my Banana Split Blizzard before Steve got halfway done with his.

I have not seen ONE of the Stars Wars movies! Not one - not the old ones or the new ones. And I'm indifferent to seeing them.

I have nothing else to do now that all the season finales have come on.

I have to get to bed so I don't lay in bed tomorrow wanting to not go to work again.

I sprained my ankle again. Figured it was about time to fit the schedule of my constant ankle sprains anyway. It's nothing too major, just minor swelling and some idiotic limping for myself.

Time to go apply the usual treatment - elevation, ice and compression. Perfect excuse to stay in bed with a good book.

Almost every year after my birthday, I disappear for a few weeks from here. You'd think it's because I had some awesome kind of three week long party where I flew out to Vegas and gambled away some rich old man's money and partied until the sun came up and maybe even got married and got divorced, like my idol, Britney Spears ya'll, did (totally kidding on that one). But I didn't. My life just isn't THAT exciting.

My birthday was nice. Thanks for all the birthday wishes from eveyone who stopped by here! We had a barbeque at Steve's brother's house - played cards, ate burgers, drank beer, the usual. My mother sent me flowers and cards and called to wish me a Happy Birthday, along with a ton of others. Steve and his parents had a little party for me on Friday night because they had to go to a wedding on my actual birthday, so we had pizza and presents and all sorts of fun stuff. And my boyfriend, being the lovely Baron that he is, bought me a light up keyboard. Everyone I told thought it was for the computer but noooo, it's actually a musical keyboard that has keys that light up so you can learn how to play. I was so impressed and floored because everytime we go into Best Buy or Radio Shack he can't pull me away from the keyboards and it was really thoughtful. I've been trying to learn how to play and I'm ok but it takes a while to get the hang of it.

Other than that, just been busy at work. We've been barbequing at Steve's brothers every Saturday since my birthday, which is amazing because this past Saturday was the first nice evening we've had since then and could actually sit outside. We've also been going to the track and on Friday I headed out to a local bar on the Delaware/Pennsylvania state line with my girlfriend Casey and we sat and made fun of all the idiots who got up and sang karoake (speaking of, I saw the biggest woman I've ever seen in my life that night - she was about 6'5" and 280 pounds - I was amazed because I had never seen a female that huge before). We also had a Pay-Per-View last weekend so that was nice and fun, as usual.

I'm in training all this week for Crystal Reports, which means I'm commuting forty-five minutes away. I never realize how awesome it is to live ten minutes from week and to be able to walk to pick up lunch (because I work right in the middle of a business district where there are restaurants everywhere). I had to drive out of the business park I was in today to find a place to eat and I ended up driving thirty minutes just to find a Wawa and then had to rush back to eat. I find it absolutely amazing that you go out of my driveway and turn left, right or go straight and within one mile you will find a Wawa in all three directions but up near where I was today, I drove ten miles and not one Wawa in sight. Needless to say, the training is interesting and it's good for my resume as well as something I need for this loan origination software I've been working on for the past year. (I'll also solve my problem by bringing my lunch tomorrow!)

I've finally started planning our trip to South Carolina in July and I'm really excited about that. In June, I'm supposed to go to a Phillies game with a girlfriend and since summer's coming, I'm sure there are tons of weekend shore trips around the corner. This weekend, Steve and I are heading to Neuroc, which is our annual rock crawling competition. I'm really excited about that and will hopefully bring back some good pictures and video.

And in June, I'm going to see Tom Petty and the Black Crowes at the Tweeter Center and I'm sooooo excited! Last week, I was down talking to Jess and said if WMMR gave away the tickets that she needed to call for me because I've been wanting to go to this concert since they announced it. One of the people in her department called me about two hours later and told me to come down and when I did, she said we won tickets to the concert and I screamed! Then we went to the station to pick the tickets up and it turns out they were THIRD ROW so they put us on the radio. It was pretty cool! We got awesome tickets and got to go back and meet the DJ and get on the radio and stuff. Exciting times and I get to see an awesome concert that I'm going to look forward to for the next month.

Oh, and I also have to go to court. Anyone remember this entry? Yea, well I got a supoena in the mail from the Philadelphia District Attorney's office and on June 17 I have to go downtown to be witness. I'm not really excited about that and I'm actually kind of pissed - so much for trying to help people.

Steve and I saw House of Wax and Amityville Horror in the past few weeks. Both are rather fun. Don't go expecting horror genius or anything but Ryan Reynolds is fucking hot, as I said when I saw him in Blade. House of Wax was a good time waster for a Sunday night - and it was totally worth it seeing Paris Hilton get a spear thrown through her head. If you want a fun time at the movies, go ahead - we pay student ID prices so it's not as expensive for us anymore. Amityville was a little creepy but Boogeyman actually scared me more.

For now, that's it. I'm going to crawl in bed because now that it takes me an hour to get to "work", I need to leave at 7:00am which means I have to ACTUALLY get OUT of bed when the alarm goes off at 6:00am. It sucks but it is a nice change from being stuck in the office all week.

P.S. Edy's Dreamery Coney Island Waffle Cone ice cream is the shizznit and I should have bought it tonight but bought Banana Split instead, and while it's awesome, I really should have gotten the waffle cone.